Innocence that blooms hatred, but is chopped down by other emotions.
Solitude that couldn't be so lonely, that cannot be mustered into peacefulness.
A rage that boils the brain with a heat that bring out the harsh and hard edges.
There is nothing that can smooth it over, cool it down and bring it into control.
According to you all would it be the vermin that crawled out from underneath a rock or would it be the busy bee with all it's honey?
Its a conflict, moreover what can I do when I am so biased?
All I can say is that I am a human, with normal feelings and senses. Even though I try to hide it, I can't deny the fact that it is still there threatening come bursting out, flooding all and everything. A mere crack and it will be all over, this illusion of contentment will evaporate.
This should be stopped, and in order to stop it a decision has to be made. It's not easy when time is of essence and when i don't really know what I need. Some more brains or will power? More time or advice?If it ends anyway all I know is that it will break something vital, and no matter how hard I try it can't be fixed.
So here I am thinking of you, it's just that I was completely confused at that time due to the above mentioned stuff, and if I did anything to hurt you, or make you feel bad, I am humbly asking for your forgiveness and all I know is you never hurt me. The only thing I can say is I am really really sorry.
