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RaiN

2010-05-20T09:20:00.002+05:00

dark angry clouds roaming the skies. harsh raging winds blowing everything apart. thin shivering trees with their boughs bent. howls in harmony with the fiery gales. swirls of thick lightning shatter the black above. mighty sounds of thunder echoing in the plummeting rain. the cloaked figure glides through the barren land, oblivious to the tempest world. the shroud falls off revealing underneath. an ashen face with mesmerizing eyes. vast wings unfold from within. flapping the terror away. the enthralling figure flutters away from the spiteful place. wondrously I stare after the angel searching a way to follow.

thOuGhts

2010-03-22T08:30:00.002+05:00

humans have a way of thinking that their life is perfect, assuming that others are also the same. but does anyone care to delve inside. look a little deeper. sometimes what you find maybe shocking. yes it's not the same. it's not how you think it is. the facade, the outer glamor. all a lie. look into you. ask yourself. are you really happy..

"Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.": - Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)

stuck

2010-02-28T14:30:00.005+05:00

there is a point in life that everyone wants to get to...but what if you get there and the only thing you face is blankness..not knowing what to do..or how to proceed..all those dreams just stuck because things don't happen the way you want...how do you move on then..do you compromise everything and all..or do you endure in silence waiting for an opportunity..and when will this opportunity turn up..what is the point in trying and working..the sleepless nights..the typhoons of pain..tolerating all the sarcasm..what was the point in dreaming... if your just going to be stuck when you reach it..the point where it should happen..its just a never ending vertex..

RamblinG

2010-02-21T23:27:00.003+05:00

m moody and going crazy and i keep wondering about things i shouldn't. thinking about things that should be left alone. doubting about something m supposed to be and was and is really sure of. guess sometimes neglect can do that to u, even if u are used to it. used to being let down. used to being alone. and this is all the hormones speaking. and i know it. and i just couldn't stop the rush

StoLeN

2009-11-23T15:00:00.004+05:00

the laughter bubbled out from their lips.
the long road stretched on.
there was nothing even mildly interesting in the vicinity.
just the end of another hectic day.
suddenly the air buzzed with activity.
something in sight.
a dark mysterious silhouette.
coming closer.
an aura of arrogance around him.
he approached wearing a mantle of self confidence.
flaunting that alluring smile.
fascinating me.
the beauty of the moment can only be marveled at.
enthralling me in that beautiful voice.
the master of skill.
he just walked away brushing past.
stealing the most precious item with him.
pulling all the chords with it.
hidden within him.
unknowingly i went on.
happiness flooding me.
blissful even when i realized the stolen entity

sentiments

2009-11-08T22:23:00.002+05:00

I'm here watching the rain beating the window
Listening to that song...
And all I can think of is.....
That smile so sweet...
That touch so gentle...
The scent that I'm craving for...
That beautiful voice whispering to me...
And all I want is you..

LIL FroOk

2009-05-28T19:28:00.001+05:00

that was my lil frook haiman tampering with me bloggy...

NOTE TO HAI: that was funn :D

my style, my music, my blog :P

2009-05-28T19:23:00.002+05:00

hey guys and girls and all in between... :P
i kno its been a while since i posted.. ive been real bzy with exams and some other stuff ;)
anyway... i jus wantd 2 post something cuz... well cuz i wanted to... :P (yea its my blog)

so like take care peeps
peace out
saadhu loabidiot shareef

uncontrollable

2008-12-27T20:32:00.003+05:00

the feeling of apprehension...the thought of being caught...the worry about everything cascading down....the minute the direction changed...it just happened, and now....... there's no stopping it.....

am still here

2008-12-12T13:31:00.006+05:00

walking down the same streets
somehow it feels so different
random places
to be cherished always
holds so many memories
reminiscing them
brings out floods
uncontrollable thoughts
swirling in the mind
a blur in the horizon
a falling leaf
so many things are so special
a lot can change
but it still remains the same
it can bring out pangs
in that special place
lovingly given
cruelly torn
what it feels like is known
when broken beyond repair
when ripping out that part
with bare hands
seems so relieving

LoOk before you leaP

2008-12-05T19:53:00.005+05:00

an ingenious friend of mine told me that" life is a painting without an eraser", and i realized how factual that one sentence is. this one statement continued to dwell in my mind. the mere truth that it expresses cannot be changed. if this is the reality, i wonder how, many of us can go on after doing something that wounded another being so much that the person gave up on life. do these selfish people want to take back their actions? are they remorseful and do they repent? if they had another chance will they be making the same decisions?
it would not be a waste to take some of your precious time to think about what you do. how you have or could hurt someone purposefully. you could be in the receiving end of this line, and then you would come to realize how huge the impact of just one or two words/movements could be. it could shatter what someone had endearingly built for that person's whole life. you cannot take back the foul words you uttered. cannot wipe away what you did, so think...and you'll come to know how vital that is....

Care for a ride in Hell?

2008-11-30T23:20:00.003+05:00

You can sit in that pitiful throne of yours. With all those creases and shadows lining your face, the contours of it that makes you look so wise, you can stare at me, but it want effect me. Neither am I susceptible to the ideas that gaze brings forward, nor will I accept those ghastly actions you hint. You may brood and connive of ways to get me into your clutches. However you can and will be proved unsuccessful. You could arrogantly go on thinking that I am a mere doll that is for you to persistently play with, but it will not last so. It is not so majestic to me, when I picture your face greedily drooling at the sight of your prey. The serene beauty you wrap around yourself and use as a cloak from notorious comments will wear out and lose its ability to protect. What will you do then? Use that smooth slick talk to slide through the grease? And then what?

Epilogue

2008-11-16T23:06:00.005+05:00

Coming out of the hole....
Sees all the things left unappreciated.....
Thinks of how foolish the acts have been....
Figures it's better off this way.....
Punished for sins that weren't committed.....
Picks up the fallen pieces.....
Walks away......
Wishes for wishes to come true.....

HIM

2008-09-30T00:10:00.009+05:00

"When Love And Death Embrace"

I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms

When love and death embrace

I love you
And you're crushing my heart
I need you
Please take me into your arms

When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace

Anniversary

2008-09-01T21:35:00.004+05:00

It was just a colourful spot on the painting of my life. The limited calm before the storm began. Happiness that was both filled with guilt and pleasure. It seemed like a joy as the wanting and needing wrapped around. The balance between the soul and body made the mind to ease and accustom. The beginning of trust rooted into the heart from the seed of love and grew out to foliage into a wonderful time. It was happiness that i had never seen, a sparkling time that I had never experienced. From you i learnt what it was like to feel, to trust, to take and at the same time to give. It was a new secret. The feeling of belonging made the lonliness go away and then..... suddenly it stopped. Just like the first signs of a tornado the hints were dropped and then it came, raging, crashing and destroying everything in its path. Hurt and pain as such i have never known before engulfed me. Sucking me dry, dragging me into the depths of the dark gloom. Outrageous and suffering from the open, gaping wounds that bleed fresh everyday, I try to pick up the pieces and start to put it back together, I just don't know how long or how much effort it will take to accomplish this, and i have some stray thoughts....

Do I want that happiness to come back........

Am I better off like this.........

Did I really care this much, I didn't realise before......

Is it so beautiful and am I crazy not to be mad at you......

How hurt can someone feel.....

How much can someone want..........

Reminiscence

2008-08-20T17:01:00.004+05:00

today was the beginning
today is the end
now its broken all of its gone
how would it have been like to have gone on
how would this day be celebrated
i don't know
you don't know
its just difficult not to think

wOrthLesS

2008-06-11T23:15:00.003+05:00

Is it worth anything? And why do I care?

Done

2008-06-09T22:58:00.003+05:00

i just know that you were never happy never satisfied and that you never accepted me or was not humble enough to accept me as i am forever i am having to work hard having to prove myself to you and that i care about you and that i am trying to make you happy but what did i get in return just your overbearingness and bruises a couple of scars and most of a constant headache form listening to your whining your shouting your problems i always see you praise others i always hear echoes of my failures and i always found the need to redeem myself infront of you i gave up a lot of things and i m still holding myself away from many things that i want but still i just feel you pushing me away mocking me you never thought that i want things or worldly possessions as you might call it from the way things are going i see that i am never going to succeed in my fight
so i am done fighting i dont care what ever you think i dont want to know your opinion neither do i want to impress you please you or placate your ego

Still the Same

2008-05-12T13:31:00.004+05:00

today, when i looked out the window of my house i just realized how different everything is, new buildings can be seen where they weren't before and the trees have changed. i realized how much i have lived, how many hurdles i have jumped. i am not the naive little girl who used to sit by the window of my old house looking out onto the neighbors garden imagining ways of playing hide and seek in the bushes, neither do i have that much leisure time to spare. but, to me it still seems only yesterday i sat the O' Level exams, trying to remember everything i had learned, excited at the same time apprehensive. and now, today i am starting my AS exam, again enduring the long hours spent on studying the ridiculous content, so it seems just like a repetition of what i did before in O' Level. this brings me to this thought that no matter how much anything changes or transforms, basically it's just the same thing. However much you change from the outside, how much experience you get, or how mature you become, inside you are still the same person. i may not sit by the window daydreaming, but i still dream whenever i can.

Freedom

2008-04-27T16:58:00.003+05:00

No matter how old we get or how much we fight for our rights, we still do not have complete freedom. We are bound by an invisible string holding us within. Other people control our lives influence our decisions,as a result not everything happens the way we want it to. We whine, shout and try to negotiate to make everything right. To get what we want. However most of the time the fights become unreasonable, we get tired of protesting and demonstrating in the end we just have to compromise and settle down to what we have, to fantasies of what could happen and what we could have. But it is also a dent in the ego to realize that we cannot have our own way in everything, and the fantasies become unbearable and the lust for what we do not have overcomes our resolve.....

Thank you

2008-03-30T23:31:00.004+05:00

I am overwhelmed by the kind gesture you showed in thinking of me even for a moment.
It's such a rare thing and all I can tel you is thank you.
No one has ever surprised me like that.
Thank you a lot.
You just made me feel very special.
Thank you.....

Lies

2008-03-30T20:59:00.003+05:00

The basic human thinking, reaction and action is the same throughout. No matter what we say, when it comes to the most fundamental part of our lives we are just the same, no one is different. Which is not what I assumed before, thus making it a huge surprise for me to see it happen. However at the core I just came to know that I never expected anything different. All the while listening to the haunting words uttered form your seductive lips, I knew that the time will come when you would give out your traits and bring out the lies making the strong bridge that is being built to crumble slightly. I just never realized the huge impact it would have on me or how much it mattered to me that everything should be perfect. But next time I will be prepared....

Change

2008-03-05T23:21:00.005+05:00

Life was a constant monotonous routine until you came by. As a fresh breeze that touched me after being smothered for an entirety, you shined your rays upon me taking me to a new phase of life, showing me a new meaning to it. You became the reason for many things in my life, the motivation to succeed and let nothing despairing into my life. Sweeping away my melancholy you made me special and walked beside me and made me much stronger to endure anything that came across my path. You cared for me in a way no one has ever had and now I pine for you whenever you are far away. I adore the way you tolerate my stubbornness, short temper and my demanding life. Attuned to your hold I shiver in anticipation of your touch. You are my savior and what you can do to me is electrifying ....

Tagged

2008-03-02T09:57:00.005+05:00

I got tagged by Glorious so I am also following the chain reaction.
Here I go.....

A- Available?: depends on what it is for
B- Best friend: shafy
C- Cake or Pie?: cake
D- Drink of choice: coke
E- Essential thing used everyday: eyes
F- Favorite color: blue n white
G- Gummi bears or worms: none
H- Hometown: Male'
I- Indulgence: sit somewhere special....
J- January or February: January
K- Kids and names: errrrrr......
L- Life: fun. exciting, adventurous, sorrowful, disastrous, but there is always a reason to live
M- Marriage date: I dunno, m not eligible yet
N- Number of siblings: one small brother
O- Oranges or apples: Apples
P- Phobias: i dunno geckos maybe

Q- Quote: You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act

R- Reason to smile: when i find anything amusing
S- Season: rainy
T- Tag three people: chickyyy, dhalhufeeni, yukiks
U- Unknown fact about me: I dunno either
V- Vegetable you do not like: pumpkin
W- Worst habit: Saying i dunno too soon for personal stuff
X- X-rays you have had: I dunno
Y- Your favorite food: Spaghetti
Z- Zodiac: Aries

Hidden

2008-02-17T18:55:00.005+05:00

Temperature soars over the clouds. The muscle are too tired to shiver in the dark. A storm rages inside the skull, beating against the hard rock trying to break free. But what can be done? Just a small whimper in the blackness is the only sound that could be heard to the sharpest ear.

The light reaches out as penetrating fingers at dawn. Is it a sigh of relief or weariness that is heard to the sharp ear now? All that can be seen is a smooth flawless exterior. Some people would envy it, others would covet it and most would loath it. Moreover does anyone know how the interior looks like? What it hides, is better unknown to any soul.

Understanding

2008-02-10T18:36:00.000+05:00

You don't need others to tell me who I am. I can tell you myself.

What I am is

A hopeless disgrace

A nuisance to everyone.

A curtain of darkness that smears everything it touches

An excuse for a living being

An attempt at making life a blooming tree

A doom that wastes most of the time trying to understand undeniable scum

A wasted oppurtunity in trying to find happiness

A bleaching effect is what I bring and what i will bring

But I like it that way....... I don't regret anything I did to you

Hope

2007-11-12T00:29:00.000+05:00

The canvas of my life that I am painting here is so bleary and dark. The edges of it smeared with distrust and back stabbing. Somewhere along the way there is a bright light shining trying to light up the hidden corners and heal the wounds. But the wounds are too deep, the scars are too much to be removed and the dark places numerous and too intense to fill up. The only thing that matters is too far away and unrelenting to be wanted. I guess I should move on with my life and try to find out what the gleam in the horizon brings. How ever it still lurks in the corner of the mind, threatening to come out and harass my thoughts when the defenses are weak. When I feel too hurt and exhausted to move on. The shell that’s built around might be too thick for the light to penetrate, but I’ll just wait and see if it can chip to the inner core and find out who I really am.

Enmity

2007-11-06T22:06:00.000+05:00

Weedeefee do people think they are? Holed up in there own miseries, throwing up at there own pile of luck. Kicking it in the face, and then thinking that everything will go on well. The looks they give others, as if they are the lords of the world, dripping in polish and sarcasm, pushing there noses high in the air. Looking about themselves in vain. These puny dumped up creatures go around thinking for there own good but wallowing in there own sorrows and despair. Thinking and dreaming of what they let go.

As you, creature from hell, start your damned life in a new phase, turn the page and start afresh in a blackened book, I wish you all the luck and hope that the person gets what is bargained for in an unfaithful and bewitching organism like you. Let your flesh be fed upon by this vile animal whose cravings will never be satiated. Sink those blunt claws into the prize won from trickery, mischief and deviousness. But beware of the wrath you will one day face from the people you once thieved upon. Go crawl into your dark and foul den with that unlucky vixen doomed to failure in treating you as an angel.

Unvarnished

2007-10-14T16:25:00.001+05:00

when one doesn't know what to do.....
when one doesn't really care....
there is nothing called happiness...

Why do people frown at others when they do not know what they are? Why do they think that they are perfect, while in actuality they are full of flaws? The human race is becoming so full of themselves, that they frown at their own things. Just like pigs they go around wanting and snorting, finding fault in others. Thinking that they are angels.

We are all vulnerable to the cruelty that the world shows, but every hard ship is followed by an easy path and bounty from the Lord

Existance

2007-10-09T01:26:00.000+05:00

To be unwanted and forsaken.
To be helpless and dependent.
To be misunderstood and betrayed.
Everything has a meaning, and a need.
Desires and hopes.
It cannot be an accomplishment alone.
One needs others for happiness.
Why can't it be unrelenting?
Why can't it stop?
Why doesn't it just go into overdrive and explode?
Why must the illusion be eternal?
Why can't it all end?

The Beginning

2007-10-07T20:42:00.000+05:00

Every time the sun rises, every time a new day starts, its the beginning of a complete, whole new day.
We do not know what it holds in store for us.

The happiness of it is found in the journeying, and not at the end.
The catch is however much you try you just can't find real and true happiness.
The only thing that matters is that you care.
The saddest thing is that even though you try really hard, others do not appreciate what u do. But I do reallly really CARE......

Meedhen konfadha kameh

2007-09-26T20:56:00.000+05:00

midhuvaskolhu abadhu inner turmoil akaa outer turmoil akaa
dhen vaanee ves ehnnennnu
women vermin ah vefa, quick kiuck ah veema
aaan meehaku ishqee vejje dhen ehemma dhaneee
fassaaleeeyeyyyyy
yeah yeah yeah
dedicated to CROCKY

Inner Turmoil

2007-09-04T19:26:00.000+05:00

Innocence that blooms hatred, but is chopped down by other emotions.
Solitude that couldn't be so lonely, that cannot be mustered into peacefulness.
A rage that boils the brain with a heat that bring out the harsh and hard edges.
There is nothing that can smooth it over, cool it down and bring it into control.

According to you all would it be the vermin that crawled out from underneath a rock or would it be the busy bee with all it's honey?
Its a conflict, moreover what can I do when I am so biased?
All I can say is that I am a human, with normal feelings and senses. Even though I try to hide it, I can't deny the fact that it is still there threatening come bursting out, flooding all and everything. A mere crack and it will be all over, this illusion of contentment will evaporate.

This should be stopped, and in order to stop it a decision has to be made. It's not easy when time is of essence and when i don't really know what I need. Some more brains or will power? More time or advice?If it ends anyway all I know is that it will break something vital, and no matter how hard I try it can't be fixed.

So here I am thinking of you, it's just that I was completely confused at that time due to the above mentioned stuff, and if I did anything to hurt you, or make you feel bad, I am humbly asking for your forgiveness and all I know is you never hurt me. The only thing I can say is I am really really sorry.

Turmoil

2007-08-21T22:14:00.000+05:00

Sitting........
Waiting.......
Wanting........
Thinking.......
Wishing.......
Praying.........
Pining......
Bleeding.....
Paining......
Till it happens...........
Or till............. DEATH

sowie a lot

2007-08-12T19:48:00.000+05:00

emmen i am sorry about the last post it was a friend eh ge ethi, she wanted me to post it so i did it for her i am really sorry at that time i didn't know it was a story from chicken soup
sorry to the power infinity

Eternal Love

2007-08-09T23:14:00.000+05:00

Each year he sent her roses,
and the note would always say,
I love you even more this year,
than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow,
with every passing year."

She knew this was the last time
that the roses would appear.
She thought, he ordered roses
in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know,
that he would pass away.

He always liked to do things early,
way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy,
everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems and
placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside
the portrait of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours,
In her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture,
and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was
to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour,
The doorbell rang, and there
were roses sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in,
and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone,
to call the florist shop.

The owner answered, and she asked him,
if he would explain, Why would someone would
do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away,
more than a year ago,"
The owner said,
"I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today,
were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead,
he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order,
that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance,
you'll get them every year.

There also is another thing,
that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.
Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that should be sent to you
the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking,
as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence,
this is what he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year
since I've been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely,
and the pain is very real.

Or if it was the other way,
I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything
so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say,
you were the perfect wife.
You were my friend and lover,
you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year,
but please try not to grieve.

I want you to be happy,
even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.
When you get these roses,
think of all the happiness that we had together,
and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and
I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on,
you have some living still.

Please...try to find happiness,
while living out your days.
I know it is not easy,
but I hope you find some ways.

The roses will come every year,
and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered,
when the florist stops to knock.
He will come five times that day,
in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit,
he will know without a doubt!
To take the roses to the place,
where I've instructed him
and place the roses where we are,
together once again.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.

This is Forever Friendship.

2007-08-05T19:31:00.000+05:00

aarrrghhhhh
The holidays from stress, pressure and all the other plague that seem to dog students is over. So now it is back to reality for all of us.
sheeyyyyyytttttttt
The welcome back to school was hampered by the revelation of unit test marks.
Here is a small description of what happens.
The teacher comes in with a bundle of papers. Everyone is staring at it. Then the hyperventilation starts. The doubts start racing through the mind, unwanted questions. Did I pass? Did I do it well? How is it? Will my marks be the lowest? All those stooopid questions
The teacher starts handing out the papers. Then there comes the request not to read out the marks. At least some are understanding enough not to do it.
This is where the adrenaline kicks in. The heart beat rate increases, its as if the heart is thumping, against your chest, trying to get out.
The teacher comes over with the paper, it almost takes your complete will power not to snatch it from their hand. The paper is in your hand now, the one that will make you float over to bliss or the one that will doom you to damnation.
All the hard work, all the pain, all the time, all the sacrifices, is it enough , is it worth it, did you do all that just for this. The eye streaks up to the red circle. The one that encircles the numerals that is the result, of what you did to achieve your desired marks. One look is enough to play with your mind, as your emotions go haywire..........

Get well soon

2007-08-02T18:23:00.000+05:00

This post is dedicated to my best friend shafee aka rihanna aka butterfly princess.

*hehe chakadaa*

Well she's being going through a bout of common cold which is getting better.

Annnnd due to this stoooopidd cold she has being unable to go out or have any fun during these holidays, as she got stuckkkkk at her house

So here is to my tweeet, cute, loabi buddy and best pal, whishing her get well soon and a fast recovery from the idiotic illness.

I'm missing u a lot.

The new look

2007-08-01T20:33:00.000+05:00

Haaaiii everyone.

Hope you all like the new look.

Well this change was initiated by Thoami my new friend, annnd he was a monstrous help in co-ordinating the stuff, since I kind of suck at the colour thingy.

Hehe anyways I just wanted to thank him a lot for his invaluable help.

*biggg applause*

THANK YOU A LOT

hehe thats all for now

(annd I used simple words this time)

What is this??

2007-07-30T22:14:00.000+05:00

It is a complete manifestation, an infection of leeches, sucking out the hardwon control.

It is a wound that is oozing out a mixture of pus, degraded blood and precious tears.

It is an expanse of unknown pain, two forces acting in opposite directions, pulling further apart.

It is quite pungent, requiring it to be put away, bottled up.

It is not defined, and being undefined it has no meaning therefore no real solution.

It is an unwanted affliction, showing no detection, as a consequence no prescription.

Conclusion: At the moment unfit for human consumption.

Tagggggeddd

2007-07-28T17:37:00.002+05:00

Hehe I got tagged. Aaaannnnnd update kurevey varu vee dhemeehun------> chiezo annndd the lil chickie, kureema, thank u.

Hehe sowie abt it. No worries, cos I got a really bad excuse for it. heheh.......... I was busy with school stuff and didn't even have time for chatting. Sowie everyone.

Well here are the dumb answers I got for the questions heheh

1.Three things you can't do
-bubble gum boki eruvun (dhaskofa vefa ves nuvi)
-swim (float kureve o)
-thun anburanins (ulhe ulhe ves nuvi)

2. Three things you can do
- whistle (yayyyy parrrtyy)
-Ride a bike ( i can do it)
-turn my arm two ways, one clockwise and the other anti-clockwise, at the same time

3. Three things that scare you
- God
- Small ant colonies near me (biruveri dhai alhaafaane)
- Cosmeticians (aarghhhh)

4. Three things you love
- Eating (I luuurrrve it)
-Coke
-Music

5. Three things you hate
- Medicine
- Mughu riha and pumkin (yuccckkk)
- Not having any edible thing in the vicinity (hehe)

My turn to tag, lets see heheh

How abt

yukiks

dhalhufeeni

Fluctuating thoughts

2007-07-15T19:06:00.000+05:00

I am uncertain as to what I think. I don't think this has ever happened before. My thoughts are ever changing, my moods fluctuating, my emotions uncontrolled. I am totally new to this. Unknowingly my feelings have become alien to me. An eternity of melancholy has conqured me. A lot of things have lost it's interest. My passion for food, the unsatisfied thirst for it have changed from one extreme to the other. The work which I had craved and always was my priority has no utmost significance at moments. My obsession of race car driving has no real meaning to it now. I am moving over a lot, from one thing to another. I am unsettled, insatiated and disheartend. My brain is biased, what ever I do, what ever I think, where ever I am, there seems to be new thoughts dwelling at the back of my mind. I don't have any idea what to do with them, what to say. Nor do I know how to stop it. As the darkness of the night descends, and the bright twinkling stars shine, I become susceptible to the innumerable secrets it holds. Things that can not be forgotton, moments that could not be banished. I have no reasonable explanation for these sleepless nights I am enduring, for these eccentric dreams that are chasing me in the cold of these hours. All that I know is these things are making me deny some stuff. Things that I want. And preventing me from trusting enough in me and in anyone else to make anything work. It seems as if the ground is swallowing me. Closing over my head, forcing me to its agonising depths..........

2007-07-08T19:10:00.000+05:00

this is the view from school. its quite eye catching.

this photo was taken by chizo ge barakaaitheri aipulhun

this is also taken bye her

this was taken by me

and all the photos was taken by my great phone, which is kudees koh massalajehifa

Betrayal

2007-06-27T22:11:00.000+05:00

Tears of sadness
Fall in the darkness
Flashes and image
Bring up a rage
Feelings battered and broken
Left me forsaken
Years of faith and trust
In an action of unjust
Goes up in the air
Leaving me in despair
Unhappiness settles
And fear overtakes
The heart and mind
Is brutally pained

first day in school

2007-06-24T22:39:00.000+05:00

I was very eager to start school, but so far everythings going wrong, its boring, stupid and idiotic. I don't like having to go to the new building, i dont like all the repeat programs, i don't like the teacher and i dunno i am not happy with anything. just didnt come up to my expectations and here's the big thing i am just jealous with some people having more free periods than me and having to go to the other end of Male' in the stupid idiotic mendhurugadeege heat. My first impression of chse are the following words:

"I am your teacher.............. I am not your teacher................... I am your guider"

(said in a nidhigadha adu ............... like a drone)

Does not make any sense right? But that was my teachers first words......... so u get what i mean?????

Loving you

2007-06-20T10:03:00.000+05:00

All these days
All this time
All my existence

I loved you
I adored you
I cared for you

Every time you hurt me
Every time you left me
Every time you were not there

I missed you
I pined for you
I yearned for you

What I did
What I achieved
What I accomplished

I did it hoping
I did it thinking
I did it longing

That you’ll be coming back
That you’ll be changing
That you’ll be proud

When you came
When you returned
When you turned up

I took you back in
I hoped all my wishes came true
I was overwhelmed

Again it repeats
Again you leave
Again you wound me

I thought you loved me
I thought you cared for me
I thought you cherished me

How ever much it happens
How ever much you go away
How ever much you hurt me

In my mind
In my heart
In my soul

I’ll always love you
I’ll always adore you
I’ll always care for you

Who you are actually

2007-06-17T15:15:00.000+05:00

The personality you show to others is what you are superficially. Hiding behind a façade of pompous achievement, pedigree, fame and charm you viciously conceal what in reality you are. A person of deceit, you illustrate a two timing nature. Two sides of you. A veneer of polish and a veracity of treachery. In one you are a graceful person, with a loving heart, a caring nature. But in truth who you are is what you demonstrate when you are not acting. Away from society’s evil grasp you become the ugly individual that only a few know of. A self that sadistically, cruelly sink your claws and fangs into the innocent. Preying upon them. Taking what’s not righteously yours. Diminishing other beings, others self respect, others authority. Hurting them, forcing them, bending them to your ways. Acting upon your desires, your needs, and your unfulfilled wishes. When you realize in actuality what you are, when you rip your outwardly layers and come to the very core of yourself you’ll find out that you are a beast, a vermin that crawled out of mud, a swine plundering upon others. Ill fated, pitiless, selfish and malicious is what you are. When others realize this they’ll come storming to your door. Till that day live in your doomed fantasies, in that orb you’ve built around yourself in order to protect the monster that’s inside you

Amazing heels

2007-06-13T13:52:00.000+05:00

Hi everyone and muchos gracias for the comments.
This time m going to talk about this thing that really fascinates me. The other night I went to Aminiya and I saw a lot of girls wearing high heels. It ensnared my attention and I was really amazed and wondered how they could walk in them, let alone stand up without falling down. Well to me it’s a kind of art to balance yourself in thin pinprick points and walk so gracefully, that it captures other’s eyes.
But there’s also a part of me that thinks it must hurt a lot and in my opinion if u step on anything fragile it will break cause the heels exert a lot of pressure as they are very small and are forced to endure all the force you apply on them, anyway enough physics lessons.
I was fascinated enough to try them out so I borrowed one from kudabedhaththa and umm my experience……. Well it sucks. As soon as I stood up I fell down in a crumpled heap and I didn’t try it out after that. I asked one of the girls how they walk in the heels and she said “ effai kureega aneffai alhaaniyyey” hehe ( that’s the direct quote)hehe well its spellbounding to see them walk so charmingly and all I have to say to them is congratulations in perfecting the art and neynge bunaane ehchchehves molhukamun umm will a congratulations, gud luck and don’t try to hurt yourself do? You all are the epitome of balance and charm.Ekm bunan oihaaehchchakeeves hadhaankuraashey vetijiyyaa dheravaane. Dheravejjiyyaa roveyne. Rovijiyyaa ladhugannaane. hehe thats all

Bye for now

Thank you

2007-06-11T00:12:00.000+05:00

Guess what everyone????????

I just finished making the blog. He he I'm totally over the moon. This is the hard work of very great friends who helped me (even though I was giving them a hard time) hehe soooo i would like to thank them a lot in many ways.

Afrikaans (Southern Africa) Dankie

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Egyptian (ancient Egypt) [to a man] Dua Netjer en ek

Egyptian (ancient Egypt) [to a woman] Dua Netjer en etj

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German (Central Europe) Danke

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Hehe I hope everyone could understand one of the languages! :P hehe once again thanks everyone who helped me